Thursday, April 29, 2010

Furry Scurry!!

What is the Furry Scurry might you ask, well it is a 5k run in Wash Park for the Dumb Friends League. The best part? Griffin gets to run with us! :)

I have been running/training for the past couple weeks getting ready, it's be a little difficult [I have been focusing on running faster because I will be running with my gazelle boyfriend]. The Dumb Friends League is a animal shelter here in Denver and it helps homeless dogs find homes. How could I say no to such a wonderful cause?

We are running with our friends, Liz & Tim, and their chocolate lab Nestle who is also 2. Then we'll do brunch, get some good schwag for our pups and enjoy a beautiful Saturday. I am so excited!!

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Taking time to listen

Sometimes I wonder why certain people are in my life. Do you ever think about that?

I think about it in terms of- did God put them in my life for a brief moment to just impact me for this period or did God put this person in my life to show me what I should strive to be or strive not to be. Because overall, I truly believe everyone in your life should teach you something- good or bad.

Just after hanging out with my closest friends this past week made me really long for true friendship closer to me. I have amazing friends in many many states including Colorado; however, I wonder if some are worth the time. If I continue to call and I never get a call back- is it really worth it? Shouldn't I just focus my time on the people who put the effort in that I do? And when friendships fall apart whose fault is it really?

In high school I had a best friend, we were practically sisters we were so close. We played basketball year round together, in the summer when we weren't at sports camps we would spend the night at each others houses. Then one day something awful happened. This person completely betrayed my trust. I was blindsided and lost all of my friends. It was an awful time in my life, but I don't think I would be as strong as I am now if it wouldn't have happened. Last year, I saw a friendship add for this girl on facebook. At first I wasn't sure what to do, because I vowed never to befriend her again, even after pleads, notes, etc from her over the years. I decided to accept the request and over the past year we have began to talk again. We went to dinner 6 months ago and quickly I was reminded why we were so close before. She is now married, owns her own company, etc- funny how things change so much. Then she did something she never did before- she face to face with me apologized. I had never gotten that from her in the past because I never gave her a chance. All she could get me to listen to before were notes and phone messages. It was really powerful after all the years of my anger of not wanting to listen to her apologies and excuses I could have listened..... Earlier this month we went to Taylor Swift [and amazing concert might I add!!] She reminded me that I took her to her first concert as a birthday present when we were 13! It was a great time.

This story really hits me because I wonder if certain friendships that are ripped apart or falling apart right now will come back together. Will either side realize they were wrong and apologize? And when the time comes, will the people really listen to each other? I suppose only time will tell....

Sunday, April 04, 2010

5 years....

Do you ever think back in time and think about how different your life is or how different it could have been?

I think about this because this week is Josh and I's 5 year anniversary. I often wonder, what if...

What if I hadn't joined SK, would we still have met and started dating?
We met at a dinner exchange because our 2 houses were paired together. We became friends, but I use that term loosely. You know when there are those times when you talk to a guy and all you can think is "oh no he can see right through me, he knows I like him"-- that is how I felt around Josh. So I didn't talk to him too much in fear he would know I liked him. Silly, I know, but I was 18 what do you expect!?
I often tell myself that yes, we still would have met maybe not freshman year, but I feel like we still would have met. And I know I still would have had the same butterflies in my stomach when I first met him even if it was a year or 2 later.

What if I hadn't put myself out there and instead stayed back and kept my feelings inside?
After getting over my fear 'aka insecurity' I started talking to him more. We began hanging out and- sure enough -I didn't know but he liked me too. After a few months of friendship we began dating. I think God gave me the strength to truly show him my personality. When you first meet someone I feel you don't necessarily show your true self, but I mustered courage and confidence to be myself. I am grateful that I was able to do that, even though, I am sure Josh knew what kind of person I was even if I was shy at first.

Overall, I truly think God puts us in situations to make the most of things. He put someone so amazing in front of me and allowed me to do the rest. It is the same in the rest of life- God puts situations, experiences and says here make choices and do what you will. Today on Easter- I am so very thankful for my life-my boyfriend, my dog, my family, my friends, my job, etc.

Happy 5 years-- I couldn't imagine my life any other way!

shabby cheek